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September 15th, 2004

04:59 pm - So much beauty in life...... Well, nothing much has happened the past 2 weeks. I just found out they cancelled school tomorrow. I think I might hang out with some friend depending on the weather. I really just wanted to up date so everyone knows how much Caroline Thrasher is awesome. She literally payed the gateway for my future. I can't thank her enough. If it wasn't for her I wouldn't be going where I want to. So, if you don't VOTE CAROLINE THRASHER FOR HOMECOMING COURT then I will literally kick you butt!! well, thank you. oh yeah and I love B&C with all my heart....<3 ~sarah~ JOIN EC @ EC!!! VOTE ME SGA VICE PRESIDENT!!! Current Mood: tired Current Music: "Take it all away"-Ryan Cabrera

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September 3rd, 2004

11:08 pm - Ridin' the crazy train!! THE GAME ROCKED!!! We lost but that didn't dampen the bands spirit. We jammed out to some crazy train. Carmen and me got D O W N!!! haha But like it was loads of fun. I talk to soo many people and it made me feel really good. Nick invited me to go over to his house and play Halo with him and the guys! It made me feel good to be included. I got invited to Belmonte's swim party! Its tomorrow night, but I dunno if I am going. Then, I dunno. Words can't describe all that went on tonight. Let's just say it was perfect!! I am running for SGA Vice President. SO VOTE FOR ME!!!Sarah Yarbrough!! I think alot of people might vote for me, only due to the fact I dunno if anyone is running against me. I won 2 games of Chess at Chess Club today!! That made me feel really good. I am going to Savannah in the morning around 7 or so with Daniel. Then, we are driving right back. Haha, well anywho. I will be home mid afternoon. Sunday, I have big plans but I can't say what yet. Don't won't anyone to tell!! heehee, don't worry its not bad! Love you! ~Sarah~ Current Mood: jubilant Current Music: "Exit to Exit" - Ryan Cabrera

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September 1st, 2004

10:01 pm - I'm not in love I just can't help how I feel sometimes Still very sick. I did all my homework tonight and I had a long talk with Brett. Is it wrong to sign off and give over my heart to someone else? And after I do that what if I don't like it? Can I take back the love? DiscipleBmf: it's b-rett, just wanting to say i love you and i hope you get to feeling better b/c BRETT LOVES YOU AND THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS!!!! DiscipleBmf: i'll give you a holla tonight on the tellamaphone thing...GET BETTER B/C I LOVE YOU!!!! here's one of my poems Your Fire I'm drowning in gasoline Light a match I be the best show you've ever seen You're words are poured over me I wish this was easy You sufficate my fire I burned for you My lights gone and so are you You walk away and I just simmer there Waiting for the last embers to go out Why can't I be yours? Let me engulf you It won't hurt I swear It will be so fast This is me This is me This is me wanting you I am the fire I am the burn you feel inside I am the warmth in your bed I am the warmth in your bed that you cling to Our friction created this fire You've rubbed off on me I won't go out so easily I burned inside you too long The scars left won't go as easy You can walk away from me The scars will be there everyday There will be a fire everyday It will stay lit for you Your guiding light Follow the smoke back to me Smoke follows beauty And it never leaves you Smuther me, deplete me of oxygen You like me in blue I looked so good on you So, walk away from the fire you thought you put out There's holes in your heart Air leaked in, and forever I'll be lit We are never over, this isn't it Just understand Your words are like gasoline You only feed me Burning for you comes soo easy I'll be your object of desire I'll be your everlasting fire... ~Sarah~ P.S. If I am soo awesome then why do you push me away? Current Mood: confused Current Music: "Not in Love" - Enrique Iglesias ft. Kelis

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10:01 pm - I' Still very sick. I did all my homework tonight and I had a long talk with Brett. Is it wrong to sign off and give over my heart to someone else? And after I do that what if I don't like it? Can I take back the love? DiscipleBmf: it's b-rett, just wanting to say i love you and i hope you get to feeling better b/c BRETT LOVES YOU AND THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS!!!! DiscipleBmf: i'll give you a holla tonight on the tellamaphone thing...GET BETTER B/C I LOVE YOU!!!! here's one of my poems Your Fire I'm drowning in gasoline Light a match I be the best show you've ever seen You're words are poured over me I wish this was easy You sufficate my fire I burned for you My lights gone and so are you You walk away and I just simmer there Waiting for the last embers to go out Why can't I be yours? Let me engulf you It won't hurt I swear It will be so fast This is me This is me This is me wanting you I am the fire I am the burn you feel inside I am the warmth in your bed I am the warmth in your bed that you cling to Our friction created this fire You've rubbed off on me I won't go out so easily I burned inside you too long The scars left won't go as easy You can walk away from me The scars will be there everyday There will be a fire everyday It will stay lit for you Your guiding light Follow the smoke back to me Smoke follows beauty And it never leaves you Smuther me, deplete me of oxygen You like me in blue I looked so good on you So, walk away from the fire you thought you put out There's holes in your heart Air leaked in, and forever I'll be lit We are never over, this isn't it Just understand Your words are like gasoline You only feed me Burning for you comes soo easy I'll be your object of desire I'll be your everlasting fire... ~Sarah~ P.S. If I am soo awesome then why do you push me away? Current Mood: confused Current Music: "Not in Love" - Enrique Iglesias ft. Kelis

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August 30th, 2004

08:32 pm - Cause I'm through being cool..... THE CONCERT WAS AMAZING!! Me and Evan had a blast. Today was ok. I got a 70 on my Ap exam. Although, Literature class rocked as usual. I feel asleep in AP art history and woke up quite grumpy. Then Health was cool as usual. Practice was long but I talk to some cool peeps. Me and Davis tried out for Dinner Theatre together. I didn't do soo good. Davis ROCKED though. He shoudl get a part. I don't feel so good. I am jamming out to some Saves The Day. This, Yellowcard, and Jimmy Eat World are my FAVE BANDS!! haha, I also had senior pics. They went ok. That was Saturday. I went to the races with Sam on Saturday night. I was fun. We stayed up til forever! Well, I think I might hit the hay. I will leave you with some Saves The Day lyrics. This song will become The anthem of Your under ground You're 2 floors down Getting high in the back room If I flooded out your house Do you think you'd make it out? Or would you burn up Before the water filled your lungs? And at your funeral I will sing the reqieum I'd offer your my hand It would hurt to much to watch your die And you can bet When we mourn the death of you that night They'll lay me on the dinner table I will be the pig With the apple in mouth The food that celebrates your end...... ~sarah~ Current Mood: sick Current Music: "In Reverie" and "at your funeral"- Saves The Day

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August 28th, 2004

05:05 pm - Just like you...and say Cheese! So, We lost soo bad on Friday at the football game. 13 to 31!!! I did have an awesome time though. Me and Brett even made amends. It was soo nice to be able to hug him again and feel like he wanted to hug back. I had my senior pictures today. I hope they turn out good. Tomorrow is the concert with Evan. HEEHEE!! I am soo excited!! I have been listening to all of music today. It put me in the writing mood. Visit www.postpoems.com and then go to member search. Search Sarah Yarbrough and tell me what you think. I hope you like them. I could be mean. I could be angry. You know I could be just like you. I could be fake. I could be stupid. You know I could be just like you. You thought you were there to guide to me. You were only in my way. You were wrong if you think that I'll be just like you. ~Sarah~ Current Mood: amused Current Music: "Just like you" - Three Days Grace

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August 25th, 2004

05:30 pm - Don't cry those lonely tears tonight! I will forever miss and love Sara Bass!!!!!!! (BARA SASS)!!!! THERE WILL NEVER BE ANOTHER ONE LIKE HER!! Why does life bit you back sometimes?! IF I HAVE TO I WILL FLY TO UTAH TO SEE HER!!! ~sarah~ Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: "Pyre" - Chelsea Logue

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05:11 pm - You can't substitute the love......she's gone....she's gone! SO, its been quite awhile since I signed on and decided to update this. Life in general is amazing. I wake up most mornings and just smile. As I get out of bed and trip over Jake, my dog, I just laugh and think about how so many people just dread waking up. Today, itself though wasn't good. Well it was, but something happened that makes all that obsolete. I am walking after Health and I go to Math Team. Which I think is going to ROCK!! I go towards the Drama room and pass Sarah Dunnington. She goes, "did you hear about Sara." She didn't have to say anymore, though she did. I knew the words that were coming. Sara's mom shows up in 3rd or 4th block and tells her to get her stuff. They are leaving in the morning for Utah. UTAH!! How effin' pointless is that. I can't see her there. I can't hear her words of wisdom or have her come curl in my lap. Its not suppose to be like this. School has started, she can't LEAVE!!! I know this sounds right, but I can't stop it. I thought I wasn't going to get to say bye to her. I go to the band room and have a good yelling the kids in the instrument room. I walk outside and see Ashli Robson, who I can tell has been crying. Then, in the middle of the parking lot is a huge group of people. They wave me down and I run over there. Everyone is in tears and Sara is just as bad. I didn't cry then. I gave her a hug and hugged those around me. I kept looking over at Sara and thinking how nothing will ever be the same. Us drama kids are such a tight knit, close group of friends. It wasn't until she was walking away, I felt the tears begin to whell up in my eyes. It was one of the saddest moments ever. Ugh, I dunno how to react. I don't deal well with being sad. I go to Athens with Evan this weekend. Woohoo! Then, we're going to the John Mayer Concert!! Somehow, at this moment, that excitement has died down. I need to listen to some emo music and snuggle in bed and think. ~sarah~ Current Mood: sad Current Music: "Jenny" - Chelsea Logue

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August 22nd, 2004

12:30 am - Breathe out so I can breathe you in..... Well, school has been in awhile. 2 weeks actually. I have joined Marching band as the manager, Echostage and my shirt design won!!, Multicultural club, math team, Mock trial, chess club, and Red Cross. I might join some more. I dunno! haha!! I love school I really do. It's amazing how good of a mood I have been in. Tonight, I went to another concert. TFOA ROX MY SOX!! It was amazing. Abervale Sky played and I LOVED IT!! Garrett made me a CD and it hasn't left my stereo!! He is leaving me in awe. I didn't know he could sing so good and I didn't know he had gotten so good on guitar!! WHOA!! I could listen to this forever!! Well, I go to the John Mayer concert with Evan in a week. My senior pix are also in a week. I hope I can manage to look pretty in them. Haha!! Do I like Evan? Yes, yes I do think I do!! YAY!! !sarah! Current Mood: geeky Current Music: "Pain in my world" - Garrett Norris

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August 8th, 2004

10:45 pm - Shake it like a salt shaka.... Well, I went and saw Harold and Kumar go to White Castle with the allisons and Jack. Allison K. came up from FL for a nice visit til her Birthday. I stayed at allison C's house for a week. We went to Jess B's to watch little shop of horrors. There I cuddled with Evan some more. Then Dane came to allison's. We flirted but nothing serious. Then I came home. I went to Rachel's for a party. It was soo much fun. Evan really likes me supposively. I don't know what to do. I like him to but I dunno. I am bad at this stuff. School ROCKS!! I love school and my classes. yay!! ~Sarah~ Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: "Salt Shaka" - Ying Yang Twins

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July 29th, 2004

09:56 pm - Boogers are saltier in Florida mommy... I went to Mexico beach for a few days. It was fun. It was full of old people and the beach we were on was soo empty. I got a good tan and just relaxed with my mom and grandma. I am glad to be home though. Meagan came over today and so did Jack. We played Nintendo. It was fun. Well, more later. I am still tired. Love ya! ~Sarah~ Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: "Cry" - Mandy Moore

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July 26th, 2004

01:53 am - Summer Lovin' happen so fast....had me a blast! GREASE IS OVER!! I am sad and happy at the same time. I leave for Florida in a few hours. Chase's party last night rocked. It was nice to know I could party all night long and not have to drink and smoke to have a good time. I didn't go to sleep til 11 am this morning. I met some really awesome people at Chase's and made some great memories. So, I did go to sleep at 11 am this morning and now I just woke up not to long ago and its 2 am in the morning. I leave for Florida at 4 am. So, I am packing and everything. I should be back in a few days. I am soo excited because school starts in 2 weeks. YAYA!!! Well, I wil write more later. And umm, Evan does like me and everything but I didn't persue it even though I like him. He goes to Northgate so it would be a distance thing. It was a nice little summer fling though. Later!! ~Sarah~ Current Mood: awake Current Music: "Big Brat" -Phantom Planet

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July 24th, 2004

12:04 am - Isn't life beautiful?!! GREASE IS AWESOME!!! Everything is perfect right now. Rachel doesn't hate me. Lil Sarah is okay. LIFE ROCKS!! Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: Grease Soundtrack

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July 18th, 2004

08:43 pm - She's not breathing..... Whatever has happen since my last entry means nothing. I am all torn up and its like very few people care. I tried talking to Blain but he put up an away on me and didn't even care. I would talk to Ben but I doubt he would care much anymore. Corey, thank goodness for him. He talked to be and checked up on me. I don't know how to feel or how to act. I have cried and cried about it. I get shakey when I talk to April, lil Sarah's sister, about it. Every time they call from the hospital, I hold my breath. I am just waiting for them to tell me she is dead. I am breaking down and no one is putting me back together. Do I just lie here? Do I give up on everything because Sarah's mom is telling me this is all my fault? I can't handle this alone. I also can't ask for help because I am one of those people who puch things aside. Meagan came over today. I can't be sad or upset around her. It is almost impossible. So, I was able to laugh and have fun with her around. Lack of sleep and worry is hitting me hard though. I feel so sick. Kinda like the flu wherein everything that touches me just makes my body hurt. I wish I could go back to yesterday and fix everything. I wish Sarah was okay. I wish I was okay. Sometimes, I just wish I could wake up. On top of this, I miss Ben because he could fix anything. I could have just had my leg cut off and screaming and crying but when I heard his voice on the phone I would talk like nothing was wrong because he mad everything obsolete. Or I could call him while my friend is dying like now and he would make it all okay. Well, life is screwed up right now. I don't know how to handle this. I also have rehearsal all day tomorrow. Do I pretend nothing happened? I am going to have to put on a major front because inside I want to break down and cry and just have friends there to make me feel better. I know that will never happen. So I will smile and everything will be alright, right? No, but I can act like it. It is drama. ~Sarah~ Current Mood: scared Current Music: Silence really and a TV

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July 16th, 2004

12:20 am - Come to the show... hey ummm worked 12 hours on Grease yesterday. So I was dead to the world. Then meagan spent the night and we swam and watched labyrinth. Then I had Grease this morning. We were on TV! Then went to Pot Luck. Then home and slept. Now I am inviting everyone to the Show tomorrow night at the Sharpsburg Rec Center. FALL OF AUTUMN and TRACES OF DAY!! check then out or listen to them here www.purevolume.com/TheFallOfAutumn and www.purevolume.com/TracesOfDay they are both freakin awesome bands. The shows cheap and on top of that for 10 dollas you get a fall of autumn t-shirt!! I will ride up there with Davis and hey maybe I will see you there!! ~Sarah~ Current Mood: relaxed Current Music: Fall of Autumn FUCK YEAH!!

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July 13th, 2004

07:02 pm - Indian Giver... My Hamster Died and I am still not over it I spent the night with Samantha on Friday. We watched the Butterfly Effect and Peter Pan the new one. BOTH AWESOME MOVIES! We hung out Saturday too but driving around and meeting up with Ryan, Wesley, and Zack. It was good fun. Then Sunday, me and her drove like 2 hours to see her mom and on the way we saw Jim. We stayed the night there then came home way early so I coudl go to 4-H. I went to 4-H and it was soooo hott. Then I went shopping for school clothes. I got some cute things and some awesome shoes. Then I couldn't sleep at all last night but I had to be up early for Grease rehearsal. After rehearsal I feel asleep and just woke up. Rachel called me and said she would come get me to spend the night. Then she called and said she wouldn't come get me but she is still having the party. Its not her fault I guess it just hurts my feelings. Now that I have been asleep for 5 hours I know I will be up all night and then it will be a bitch to get up for rehearsals tomorrow. They are from 9am to 9pm. UGH! Well, I'm alittle sad and grougy. I will talk to ya later. ~Sarah~ Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: "Rain" - Missy Elliot

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July 8th, 2004

11:44 pm - Snort Snort.... Woke up early. Meagan picked me up and we went to Grease rehearsals. Then I found out I needed to stay for a work day. So Meagan brought me lunch and then went to hang with Ryan. The work day sucked. I worked hard painting and stuff just to find Doc didn't like it. SO screw that b/c @ four I left. Ryan, Rachel, Meagan, and I think this guy's name is Chris came and picked me up. We went to Ryan's and watched him try on shorts. He looked soo cute in them. Then we went to Goodwill. It was fun. I found Ryan this Lil' Bow Wow shirt and a movie for Caroline T. that she wanted really bad. Then we went back to Ryan's to watch SlaughterHouse. It was sooo funny. It was about some guy who we think was retarded b/c all he talked in was pig and he killed people. Well, I ended up leaving there to go hang with Tyler. Mike was nice enough to get me. It was koolio. Tyler has the cutest dogs EVER!! They are 2 little (taco bell) dogs. I can't spell the "C" word. HAHA, but I was supposed to see a movie with them but I found out it wasn't over til midnight. So, I had to take a raincheck and come home. It was all in all a good day. And I got to see Evan :-)! I am really tired though and now I find out I have to be at practice all next week but I have River Cleanup for 4-H monday. So, I hope I can work it out. Well, I will write more later. I am soo tired! ~Sarah~ Current Mood: calm Current Music: "Radio # 2" - The Ataries

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July 7th, 2004

12:36 am - Would you like fries with that? one sentence describes today..... I waited and waited and never got the job. ~Sarah~ Current Mood: depressed Current Music: "Milk and Cereal" haha some guys on a site

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July 6th, 2004

12:16 am - Would you like butter on that popcorn? Oh yeah. I had the job interview. It went well. They said they would call me tonight or tomorrow. They didn't call tonight. So hopefully. tomorrow. The movies seems an awesome place to work! ~sarah~ Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: Silence

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12:09 am - Curved Arrow.... Today was fun. I went shopping at the Goodwill and got some awesome baby blue, polyester disco pants that are I swear for real from the 70s. I also got a Stevie Nicks shirt that says "Tour 1988" on the back! haha it frickin ROX!! Then I hung out with Melina and Megan. We cleaned their house and dyed Megan's hair. I called my mom around 11 to tell her I would be home soon. This starts all the bad stuff. I swear! My parents don't realize how much they hurt me and megan emotionally. Yes, Megan is my sister and yes, she is a lesbian. Melina is her g/f. They love each other. They live together and are proud of who they are. My parents hate the fact I hang out with them UGH!! shit this pisses me off........I will stop there. To much of this and I know some shithead will print it out like the Mrs. Green thing and just cause stuff to go out of proportion. I am not ashamed of my sister. I love her and I ain't afraid of what people think. I am straight and she's not. BIG DEAL! I am proud to love guys. She's proud to love Melina. Don't judge people. IT HURTS! I know first hand. Megan lives it. ~Sarah~ Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Silence

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